We have seasons
Self soothe| Finding ways to feel good in the gaps of the space between where you are and where you want to be is everything That “empty yet happy” feeling caused by a new second gen drug can be rather terrifying. Because there was obviously no reason for any joy. Yet my head registered a high, a rush of perhaps dopamine. I was smiling. It’s been a long time since my lips did that involuntarily. And maybe for the first time, we have a prescription that might work on me. Side effects aside, let’s deal with them singularly. Not in the best place yet, or even a humane place honestly. But I try; even while cursing and swearing, I fight. And first, allowing small pleasures to sink in. That feeling of loosened shoulder muscles and breathing in deeply. I am growing into me.
