A reason for this season

Christmas isn’t always filled with laughter and get-togethers. For those grieving a loss, people struggling with mental health, it’s hard to be merry. 

This Christmas Eve, pastor shared a verse that spoke to me strongly,

“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.” Matt 5:14

I felt reminded and encouraged to remain steadfast in duty, in spite of my struggles and tears. It has been an extremely trying two years as I piece myself back together and focus on regaining my health. There were moments when I felt guilty and selfish, for finally putting my needs above others/ work. I also hit a point where I felt so sick of people in general I wanted to give up my passion in healthcare. Why was I trying to improve lives when I don’t even like humans 😅 But pastor preached, that there is a reason for this season. So I guess and hope that my struggles will lead to more growth and compassion. May I not allow my pain to blind me or make me feel resentful, and instead be receptive to change that will mold me to be a better person. To be more understanding, accepting, and forgiving. To have wisdom to know when to fight and when to give up. To have courage and confidence when making decisions. Most importantly, to complete what I’m sent to do with grace. 

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