not speaking doesn't mean i have nothing to say

 attempting to restart my habit of blogging just so i can get all that accumulated sadness and disappointment out of my system.

lately, the running theme has been disappointment. with friends i thought weren't going to let me down, or even take advantage of my kindness. the most common adjective used to describe me was 'nice'. i had always thought it was very plain and the sort of effortless way (read: lazy) to compliment someone. both my exes called me the 'nicest girl'. i didn't get it, till lately. nice, was an understatement. but literally, there was no other simplest adjective. i was too nice. 

so maybe, it is time i reflect on my behavior because indirectly my "niceness" has been what's allowing people to take my feelings for granted and just as they please, or whatever serves them best. perhaps, i could consider being selfish at the correct circumstances because self preservation is always necessary (: