Learning to Live

Warning: Emotional post ahead...

Achievement of the Year unlocked 😃

6pm PT with PB for pushups, weighted squats, and side planks.

830pm Spin with Personal Bestest Bestest!!! So happy I can cry 😭

Never tried having two consecutive classes before, but I DID IT!!! After half a year numbness on my left lower body, almost 10kg weight gain from the sedentary lifestyle I was forced to have, and relapse of my depression, I honestly never thought I would ever be active again.
It was so difficult to go back to PT when I couldn’t even carry my own backpack. And of course, starting spin was a giant step out of my comfort zone. The cultish community and fitspo girls in their lululemons were honestly not my thing, and in fact rather intimidating. I have to admit tho, that the music coupled with the beat was addictive for my ADHD brain and that’s what kept me going 😂 (btw, class was punk rock themed today with all the songs I grew up with. Bestest 45mins for this year.)
So proud of me for throwing my fat self out there when all I wanna do is in hide in my room and wear my pajamas. I doubt I’ll ever be well and happy again, but I’m beginning to be ok with that. Here’s to better fights ahead 🥂